I have trouble telling what the pain in my stomach is telling me, so I pretty much only just realized how bad my body hates certain sensory and social stuff. It’s as though my insides were on fire and the only way to slightly affect it is to cry (and obvi get away from the noise). I thought it was just anxiety or under stimulation before, but no, those are separate things. I have spent hours today doing various self care type stuff (meditation, being in nature, exercising, mindfully eating, yoga nitra, massage, taking a bath, fun things on the internet, positive stimulus of other sorts, zoning out), and the feeling’s still there. I don’t even mask. How do you deal with having to be in a sensory hell for hours of the day? How do you calm down? Please don’t say drugs.
Context: ADHD often makes people struggle with interoception and being able to relax.
I mean I’m functional, but only towards things I didn’t want to do before. Wow I can clean this thing I didn’t know was dirty, but wait I’m also being pulled to do three other random things. Sometimes I get paralyzed and end up just powerposting online or watching the entirety of a yt channel I just heard about.
i have recently accepted that i can only do ~20 mins or so worth of dishes without having to do some posteing or watch a YT video or do a bit of writing, so i have built it into my dishes workflow where i will straight up dump the dishwater into a pot or something and let it soak as it goes from hot to lukewarm
i dont know if this is a good amount of self-awareness or a bad cope
I think it’s both. I fought my impulses for a while and when I gave in I felt so much better - for a few days. Now I have things to do and they kinda get in the way but honestly me and ADHD are mostly cool. This sensory and social sensitivity stuff is a fuck tho.