Even IF you somehow manage to navigate today’s maze of failures, rejections and heartbreak, what is your reward? To live yet another day in misery? To wait until climate change, war or disease does away with us?
A reward would be to be able to rest. I don’t mean death per sé, but it seems like that’s the only real-life thing left available to people like us.
Yes, yes, I know very well that “if nothing has meaning, YOU get to choose the meaning”. Except I don’t. Maybe if I was rich or powerful. But I’m poor, in poor health and powerless.
I read Camus’ Sisiphus, and I, for one, cannot possibly imagine him happy.
For me the only reward are new experiences. So when I feel like nothing makes any sense anymore - it’s a sign for me to radically change my life. Given, it’s really hard to do it first time and I was lucky to have made such experience as a child (my parents immigrated when I was young). Being frugal also helps.