RiotDoll [she/her, she/her]

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Cake day: May 28th, 2024

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  • i think shunting off non rational belief into a category of “bullshit not worth exploring or interrogating” is kind of, i dunno, itself ignorant? you can at least take the approach of people who study these matters academically, and separate your ego and emotional responses from the equation and seek to actually, not just approximating marx fourth hand, actually try to understand the phenomenon before jumping to this kind of shit.

    astrology fits this category for me - it’s not remotely productive for anyone to silo yourselves off from understanding for a lack of “getting it” - you’re not omniscient, there’s shit you don’t know. Human tendencies towards these phenomena, whether imaginal or real, and you already know what you think about that, are not something to just go “lol i dont get it fuck all that noise” because you wanna actually reach people and find common cause with them, you refusing and even being hostile to this shit is gonna lose people who might, despite your assumptions, be radically useful.



  • you know, when i was a younger, worse person living a different gender, i ran into a skit he did with uhh, filthy frank i think? and i thought it was funny

    he did like, two more okay videos with kinda funny concepts before pivoting to a drama guy, fucking boring. i couldn’t invest myself in youtuber drama. Then that inane fucking podcast

    i realized he sucked pretty early, i just kept hoping maybe the bad take machine would do some funny stuff a bit more, but nah that idiot knows how his bread is buttered and it’s not being funny or interesting, but being an incredibly deranged unselfaware narcissist so whatever











  • transforming oneself is difficult. The default mode we all have is what’s raised into us. Tradition inherited via parents, and schooling. It’s often trauma or something as un-anchoring as psychedelic experience that makes people crack and change themselves, and this process is so uneven and often incomplete because change is random and unsupported except by the whims of the altered ego.

    There are very few unchallenging ways to honestly reject framing you’ve been trained to see as your only window to reality, and because of this it’s easy for westerners to find themselves unable to fully break from the frames that define their understanding of their relationship to their society, government, the world, whatever.

    I remember the day after I tripped for the first time because it really was that meme of like “wow so all of this is a fucking lie”. I had to go to school and I was laughing at the things a teacher said [they were dealing with political material] because it was just fucking wrong. Presumptions about the way things are that the average liberal or conservative takes as sacrosanct, just all fucking nonsense. But I lacked the context and knowlege to develop this further at the time. A break was made, and it would take almost two decades to widen things further properly. An early lesson was that it didn’t feel safe to fully leave the frame we’re trained to accept as authoritative reality, because those frames determine social pecking order, they determine the jobs you can get. If you can’t at least fake the faith in the dominant frames society lets you have, you’ll be quickly ousted for being too weird. It’s not even conscious for most folks, these mechanisms operate subconsciously to exclude difference of thinking and approach.

    Even a good education is unlikely to, by itself, let you break free. Especially if you’re educated in a prestige or elite context, you’re being shaped to be the next generation of demonic overlord - the education you get is structured so that you’re invested in the existing power structure - these places strictly do NOT educate in a manner that lets you go your own way intellectually.

    So everyone from Qualified Experts to the average person on the street is operating on a framework that directly serves the interest of the country and the ruling elite.

    I think people get fucked up because they take this to be conspiratorial, when social engineering is a field that’s been in the process of being born for centuries now, a lot of the key players don’t even know what they’re doing, and that’s by design. The structure is designed to maintain and propagate itself.

    It’s easy to break from it when you’re the frontier of empire- you live with the politics of empire as a victim, as a deeply exploited resource.

    People in the core are just as exploited, on the whole, but as beneficiaries with narrow education and limited interest and ability to educate themselves (on the whole) - they will not understand just what’s happening.

    I’m 34, and I have a love of learning. I literally get dopamine from study and acquiring new knowledge. How many freaks like me are there, really? Most people have trauma around education, or fully accepted it as a means to an end: there is rarely ever any love for the process of discovery and the requisite change that comes with it. Most people my age are figuring out how to live with themselves as they are, they’re not trying to shake shit loose. My experience as a trans woman probably has more to do with my plasticity compared to my peers, but at no point are any of the individual circumstances that made me able to, finally, accept a more fundamental reality about my relationship to the world, to empire; things that are automatically salvific.

    I’m a freakshow. We are freakshow. This is difficult work and most people who have the tools to wake up, never will, because the conditioning is strong, and breaking it requires the awareness and will to do so that the average ego just won’t abide.