I can say that going down that philisophical rabbit hole did help me in the past. Camus had some good points (some dont hold up well today) but his main claim to fame is that unlike the other nhilistic/absurdist philosophers he had an answer to the problem (not necessarly a correct one), his work is very much worth a read.

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As someone who’s also diagnosed with depression I’ll at least say this:

It isn’t inherently a cycle of cruelty and despair. I mean the fact that people tell us otherwise means that, at least for them, it isn’t. It’s sad but there’s a lot to life that we’re just missing.

Edit: Idk what you’ve tried but 10 years of meds never solved anything for me, but psychedelics came close. I never appreciated life more than when I tried shrooms.

Maybe if you have a brain that isn’t faulty.