Yes I find it very humiliating if I can’t hold back my tears in front of others. I think because as a kid I was made to feel as if I’m being hysterical, ridiculous, or manipulative whenever I cried. So I try really really hard to hold it all in so I’m not “being dramatic” or “making a scene”. Eventually if it gets bad enough, to the point of meltdown, I do end up making a scene, which makes me feel humiliated, and yes, it’s traumatic to me.