Found myself in a pretty terrible place mental health wise for a few years. Every day after work was 20-60mg edibles, a bowl or three, and vaping. I did this with some incredibly toxic people.
I’m back on track with my life now and only smoke occasionally. But now when I get high I just fucking panic. I’m talking one single joint and I’m in full blown stoned panic. It’s not eating junk food and laughing at stupid movies any more. It’s being terrified that everyone hates me and that I’m wasting my life and stressing about climate change the increasingly fascist government. I literally cannot relax when I’m high any more.
Is this a thing that happens? How do I go back to a happy high?
You might be going too hard. You had much more tolerance back in the day. When I was an occasional smoker (like once or twice a year) it only took one or two hits for me to get REALLY messed up.
Smoking a whole joint might not seem like much to an everyday smoker, but depending on how occasionally you smoke nowadays, it might be WAY too much.
I have definitely noticed my tolerance is lower. I used to not feel anything after one hit and now I’m buzzed after just one.
Then stop smoking at one hit and see if you have fun. If this messes you up, consider not smoking for a while, there are other safe relaxing substances like kava kava for example.