Found myself in a pretty terrible place mental health wise for a few years. Every day after work was 20-60mg edibles, a bowl or three, and vaping. I did this with some incredibly toxic people.
I’m back on track with my life now and only smoke occasionally. But now when I get high I just fucking panic. I’m talking one single joint and I’m in full blown stoned panic. It’s not eating junk food and laughing at stupid movies any more. It’s being terrified that everyone hates me and that I’m wasting my life and stressing about climate change the increasingly fascist government. I literally cannot relax when I’m high any more.
Is this a thing that happens? How do I go back to a happy high?
I had the same problem and ascribed it to the introduction of potent strains of ‘skunk’ weed at the time but I think cannabis in general was becoming toxic to my mental health. I’ve gone through this process with many substances and eventually realised I have an attention deficit which is treatable with stimulants. Lisdexamfetamine and caffeine are the only substances that are sustainable in the long term. Meditation helps too. I feel happy.