Since August 7, I’ve been working with this company to get started. They hired me, but I haven’t been able to start yet because I’m awaiting some documentation that I need before I can even begin work.

I got a call from this job today asking me if I have a driver’s license. I do not currently have a driver’s license, so they asked me if I would be interested in getting one if I needed to do so for the position. I told them that I would not be able to.

This is the first time that the concern of me needing a driver’s license for this job has come up in any capacity. She just called me and told me that it is a requirement, but she said that she wasn’t expecting this to be an issue because “99% of people have a driver’s license,” but this was, up until this point, never informed to me about this position.

That means for 12 days, I have been going through hassles to start this job for absolutely nothing. I have to pay bills by September 1, and I haven’t been able to get far. I was able to get a trans Florida-specific group to post for me on social media regarding mutual aid, but so far I have gotten nothing.

Now that I know that I don’t have this job, my stress shot up even more.

I have to cover $900 by September 1, and I just don’t know if I will be able to.

I still have the freelance position at the very least, but I’m not even sure if that is a good source of full-time income, and I need the documentation I’m awaiting to start that job too. That documentation will arrive sometime this week.

I have been going through enough pain. I was going through an intense mental breakdown over other things last night, and now what just happened today stung me so much that my head is in a “Should life even be carried on?” spot right now.

Anything will help. I have food and everything, so I’m not concerned about any expenses besides just hitting that $900 goal as soon as I possibly can.

As far as I’m concerned, I’m about to be a homeless, jobless black trans person in Florida, and that means that I feel like I’m on the verge of death. My stress is at a peak right now.

Update: 295.5 / 900