i genuinely feel like my entire life and mindset have done a… at least a 90 by now, by somehow, somehow getting this hail mary pass off and setting this up. i can’t believe this is real life it’s very bizarre, i’m just shaking with anxiety and energy
i just feel like she’ll hate me upon first sight (this was thru an app) for some reason, she’ll sense the autism, she’ll know i’m off and the next hour will be awkward and she’ll politely say goodbye.
i mean, alternatively, it could go well, she could be cool. she seems cool which i suppose is why i did this. what is happening i cannot believe these are things that are going on in my life i feel like i was just in a major major hitting slump for 10 years, strikeout after strikeout
and then also what if she ghosts me or stands me up like in the films. what then? add it to the list of failures and try to rebuild my self image?
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My tipp: don’t try to analyze and think to much about yourself. It’s like thinking about the way you walk and suddenly walking feels strange and forced. You can’t change who you are, don’t even try it.
Instead try to focus on her, everyone loves a good, active listener. You are there to get to know her anyway, aren’t you?
One thing you should take to your heart. Finding a good match isn’t an easy task, don’t go on a date expecting her to be the one. Eventually you will get disappointed or rejected, that is totally normal and nothing to worry about. It just means you and her weren’t a good fit.
And don’t try to act in a way thats untypical for you just to impress her. You want her to get to know the real you, not the impression of someone you think she would like.
Think about it like a casual date without any expectations is the best you can do