Hey welcome to my ramble of the day.

Lately I’ve been very aware of how every day I accomplish a little less and have more trouble getting through an evening without drinking.

Christmas is coming up and I’m spending it in Switzerland with my brother-in-law. All good, you’d say. Except both me and my wife are running on fumes. We are both super tired. We’ve discussed skipping it but we cannot do this to my mother-in-law. She doesn’t often get both her kids together and she’s had a rough year.

In any event, looking at my progress over the past few weeks I feel like I’m doing a little worse every day and just that realization is making me kind of depressed.

So before I get all kinds of recommendations, here’s my current game plan:

  • I’ve registered with a psychologist (not in the USA so insurance is not an issue)
  • My employer knows of evening and they are very supportive. I haven’t been working since beginning of September)
  • I intend to take it very easy in Switzerland and try to relax around the other days of Christmas as well. Beginning of January will be super chill for me.

Thanks for bearing with me. I really hope to improve in the next year.

  • stinerman [Ohio]English
    9·
    3 days ago

    This time of year is always hard for me because it disrupts my routine. There are plenty of things that I’d like to cancel as well, but can’t. My strategy is to:

    • take it very lightly on the weekends
    • get to bed early
    • make sure my wife knows how I’m doing

    Sounds like you’re on the right track.

    • Vinny_93@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      6·
      3 days ago

      Thanks for the words of encouragement.

      I am burnt out. My wife is gonna be too in a year or so and I’m really trying to get her to see that. This however means she is more of a hindrance than a help at this point.

      Going to bed early usually works fine. It’s just that some nights I drink too much and get too much into my head about all kinds of things. Once the ol’ noggin starts to do its thing there is really no going back. It makes it especially hard to stay positive and focus on everything I usually enjoy.

      I really can’t wait to see a therapist. I’m hoping they have the silver bullet to my ailments but I am at the same time cautious that nothing is gonna be a one click fix at this point.

      I am just so tired…

      • stinerman [Ohio]English
        6·
        22 hours ago

        No silver bullets. That’s not how this works.

        I recommend that you attempt to control your drinking a bit. You don’t need to quit today or anything like that. Just cut yourself off at a certain time every night.

        I wish you a better 2025.

        • Vinny_93@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
          5·
          3 days ago

          I wish you the same.

          If anyone on here reads any of this and also feels like their drinking is doing more harm than good, I’d like to reference the community c/StopDrinking which has a lot of supportive people, helpful tips and general positivity that may help.

          I feel comfortable saying I am not currently an addict but I do recognize I am on my way there. I can use every bit of support in trying to curb this thing before it ruins my life.