• peeonyou [he/him]@hexbear.net
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    i think anything can be addictive to specific people. I struggled hard with an addiction to dxm – the active ingredient in most cough syrups – but was told that it is not an addictive substance and that I just simply just stop taking it. Most people would probably agree with that, but I nearly ended up trying to get myself thrown in jail just so I wouldn’t have any opportunity to get ahold of the shit for long enough to get over it. Even to this day from time to time I think about doing it even though I know the hell it will lead me to if I do. It was easier to quit drinking alcohol, which was in no way easy to do, than it was to quit abusing dxm for me.

    I think certain things just have a draw to certain people. Maybe most people won’t have an addiction, but some will.

    edit: i initially put dmx … woof woof

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        oh wow… i never knew. my sister actually got me checked into a rehab through some herculean effort and the whole time everyone told me it was all in my head… even the therapists didn’t believe that you could get addicted to dxm

    • EllenKelly [comrade/them]@hexbear.net
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      I’ve previously used a lot dxm, the accessibility of it made it very easy to use as a mental escape, even if it made me feel terrible and was fucking up my life. Solidarity comrade.

      The best thing for me was filling my time with other things, heck I’d smock cigs over dealing with what dxm did to my mental health

      dxm did help me accept I was trans though, but i think therapy would have been better than crying under a blanket on a wednesday

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        For a time when I was very heavily abusing dxm I also thought I was trans. I almost scheduled a visit with a doctor to talk about my options to transition. A sudden change in my living situation forced me to cut back on the dxm use substantially, though not completely, and that desire to transition stopped almost as suddenly as it began, but that is probably just coincidental. I don’t think dxm was the reason why I had a sudden fascination with cross dressing and wanting to be a woman though. I think it just helped me explore that to the nth degree very quickly and then I just realized that it wasn’t for me.