The moment of death when everything is over. All the horrible shit is done but you just have to sit with the fact this person’s conciseness is gone. That’s what fucked me up back in the day.
the lack of expected noises in a lot was pretty confronting too. it’s not always like the movies with people screaming their guts out, those were the ones that stuck with me
The problem was never the blood, it was the screaming, crying, and visceral gargling
The moment of death when everything is over. All the horrible shit is done but you just have to sit with the fact this person’s conciseness is gone. That’s what fucked me up back in the day.
the lack of expected noises in a lot was pretty confronting too. it’s not always like the movies with people screaming their guts out, those were the ones that stuck with me