Freedom to die, suffering while there’s (as far as you claim - I disagree) no-one to tell you what to do isn’t freedom. Freedom to live the way you want is freedom.

I’m well aware of the pressures that have been put upon me, but ignoring them and suffering the incredible, myriad of consequences for doing so simply isn’t freedom (not in any worthwhile sense) - if it were, why aren’t you homeless? I’m not suggesting for a moment that we’re all free.

It’s the difference between largely pointless negative freedoms, and meaningful positive freedoms.