So I wouldn’t actually want to be stuck in it forever. It’s hard to explain but my k-holes are quite dark and dreadful, it’s what I explained in my previous comment except looping. I don’t have a physical body anymore and I’m just a thought process floating through space in a stream of color. There’s this creeking noise like a door opening that starts off real low pitch and slowly speeds up to the point it’s high pich and extremely fast. Then it’s like hitting a wall and you fly in to a million pieces an slowly gather yourself in that state and then it repeats.

It feels like that is what you have been since the beginning of time. It feels like a near death experience and when i come out some kind of reverse psychology goes on in my brain. I just think about how much it would suck if that was real. My depression goes away for quite awhile afterwards.