I often feel like I’m “not autistic enough”, like I’m faking it or I’m just misdiagnosed because I don’t have a lot of the big signs typical of someone on the spectrum. I was diagnosed when I was young so that makes it feel like maybe the diagnosis was wrong. I don’t know if I just mask really well or if I’m lying to myself. It’s rough. Can anyone relate to that or give me some words of wisdom?

  • noontrust@lemmy.sdf.orgOP
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    1 year ago

    I definitely showed more traits when I was young. I hated bright lights and loud noises, I carried specific items with me everywhere I went, I often missed social cues amongst my peers at that age, and I visibly and noticeably stimmed (rocked back and forth, squinted, rubbed my face). I still stim sometimes, but I think the fact that I feel leagues more comfortable in social situations these days is what mainly makes me feel like I’m “faking it”. I do miss some social stuff sometimes. But I’ve also done a lot of things I never thought I’d be able to do when I was a kid - I can drive, I have a career, I have close friends, lots of things that I was certain were unattainable (mostly bc I was riddled with depression and anxiety). I think my biggest fear is that I’ve been considering myself on the spectrum and then finding out that I never was. Like I was taking advantage of a group that I don’t belong to

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      1 year ago

      Did you ever take advantage of it though? (If you can even call it that, I can’t think of any non-extreme cases and you didn’t made it sound like you’d do that)