Part of what’s making this difficult for me is, as I mentioned in my OP, I was in a dead bedroom for many years in my marriage, so I don’t feel like I’m in a place where I can feel desire for someone and not have it reciprocated. It’s not psychologically healthy for me. But she is special and important to me, and if there’s a way I can salvage this relationship while meeting my own needs and respecting myself, I’d be open to it.

Help>Slip>Franklin’s all day

3 kids has wrung almost all the sex appeal out of breeding fetishes for me ::lolsob::