I’m a 21 year old guy and struggle with depression for my whole life because of traumatic things I experienced from my parents.
About 2 years ago I completely lost all my spirit and willingness in life. I fell into this dark hole where I’m not able to do anything on my own anymore and had to move back to my parents since I wasn’t able to live on my own anymore.
Since then I spent the full 2 years completely alone in my room every single day and haven’t been outside or met anyone since. I only get outside maybe once a month to buy groceries but except from that I don’t see the world anymore, have no activities to do and live with pure hopelessness, no money and very little food.
Even though my family knows all that and I’m crying out for help, no one is helping me. I’ve lived in many facilities before, went to therapy and have a psychiatrist but all they do is talk but that’s it. I tried my very best but realized that I’m just not capable to live on my own.
And then all my parents do (especially my father) is treating me the same way like when I was a kid that caused my depression in the first place by letting out their dissatisfaction/frustration with themselves on me and baselessly blaming/criticizing me for every little thing. And all that is just making it so much worse and harder for me to get out of the situation.
They let me suffer in hell until I go insane or die.
I don’t understand why this world is so cruel. It feels like no one cares about people who suffer.
I don’t get that. If I was better off and knew someone in such a situation I would do everything to help them and give them what they need. Why is no one helping and just let you suffer like that?
I haven’t gone to therapy but one thing I’ve heard from those that have is that you’ve got to find the right therapist for you. Identifying what is making you depressed is important, but if they aren’t helping find ways to actually deal with it then I would also struggle to see the use. If you’re still interested in therapy it may help to find a new one that pays a more active role. There’s more than one way to therapy.
Same with medication. Different drugs. Different doses. Different biome in each body. Each brain is different.
I think I’ve tried roughly 7. For periods of time. Sometimes shorter due to side effects. I now take one that works for me. It’s not perfect but it’s best so far I suppose. Took me a long time to figure that out. So please don’t give up on medications. Find one that works for you. Not just numbs you of everything.
I would also say, though it might be hard, you need to advocate for yourself. Tell your therapist that what you need is practical help to get out of your situation. Even your current therapist should be able to accommodate that. But it still might be worth it to find a new one because a good fit will help you more anyway.