Mossy Feathers (She/They)

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Cake day: July 20th, 2023

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  • It’s made me extremely antisocial and basically incapable of functioning as an adult. I thought there was something very, very wrong with me, because here I was, an otherwise “normal” adult who just couldn’t function for seemingly no reason. I’d shoved the feelings away so well when I was a teenager (because I didn’t know that being trans was an option, among other things) that I forgot how bad they were. After coming out I suddenly began remembering all the self-hatred, self-disgust and so forth, and even though I haven’t started hrt yet, it’s made it way easier to love myself when I can look at my body and say, “it won’t be much longer…”

    🥹

    Who’s a good girl? You are! You’re a good girl! I know that you’re a good girl because you’re asking these kinds of questions about yourself and because you want to support your friend. I also know that if you’re anything like me then your feelings are currently doing backflips screaming, “that’s me, that’s me! Aaaaaaaaaaa, call me that again, again, again!”

    Don’t wait sweetie, it sounds like you and your newly discovered trans friend have a lot of things you could do together, like trying to find cute clothes that fit! Just be careful you don’t accidentally overwhelm her, she’s going through some Big Feels too, but having you there will probably help a lot.

    And try to avoid focusing on the imperfections. That was something I used for a long time to talk myself out of it. Try to find silver linings instead.

    I believe in you sweetie, you can do it. Be the best girl you can be. I know you can!

    Edit: oh yeah, if you’re into gaming and already have a decent PC, look into VRChat. VR headsets should be mandatory for trans people. 10/10 euphoria generator (though personally I found it difficult to get immersed until I got leg and hip trackers).







  • Damn Jesus, you really weren’t joking about that love and acceptance shit, huh? Why’s your dad such a bigot then?

    Edit: it makes me kinda sad that Liberace never got to see the modern LGBT community. I’ve never listened to his music; it just makes me kinda sad that he was one of the most flamboyant (and painfully obviously gay) celebrities of all time, but he was born too early to be able to wave his flag without risking his career. Betty White acting as his “beard” was so based too.

    There are many days when I hope there is a god out there somewhere. Maybe it’s one created during the first moments of the big bang. Maybe it’s one that came before. Maybe it’s one that came after but due to time fuckery, exists simultaneously at all moments in time. But no matter what, that this god is a kind, loving being with an eternal oasis for all those who never got to be themselves during life. A home for the gay, the trans, the poor, the unloved, the lonely, the disabled, the abused and so forth. A home they never got to have. A place for them to heal from the scars that life gave them.

    I used to think Christianity was that; and I think to some extent I still do (I think Jesus, as portrayed in the “canon” books of the New Testament, is an amazing role model), but there’s so much baggage attached to it now that I can’t stomach associating myself with such a hateful group of people. You also get a lot of people on both sides asking how you can be a Christian and trans, or a Christian and a furry; and it gets exhausting having to explain that I treat the Bible as though the only thing you can be certain of are the bits in the New Testament that’re traditionally written in red (for those unfamiliar, many Bibles highlight the words of God and Jesus in red). So fuck all the stuff that says “gay = go to hell, do not pass go, do not collect $200”, because if the text is black then it’s a human interpretation, potentially mistaken, and/or only part of the bigger picture. If it’s red then (supposedly) it’s Jesus’ words themselves, which means that, assuming they weren’t intentionally mistranslated, they were exactly what God/Jesus meant to say.

    Nowadays I just say I’m a deist, or agnostic, or if I’m feeling spicy, that I’m an extremely-unorthodox Christian before giving them one of my weirder interpretations of Christianity. If they’re fascinated then they’re probably gonna be a good friend, and if they’re weirded out and run away then I saved myself time and effort.


  • Deja Vu by Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young. (60’s Psychedelic rock, nearly all of the songs were hits, that’s how good it is)

    Twin Fantasy by Car Seat Headrest (indie rock)

    3D Country by Geese (country rock made by a punk band)

    [the future academy of noise, rhythm and gardening presents…] The Dream by The Orb. (Ambient house? Can’t remember the exact genre, very ambient, sample heavy and “lush” but also dancable)

    Keep It Unreal by Mr. Scruff (acid/nu-jazz I think?)

    Frequencies From Planet Ten, Time Travelling Blues by Orange Goblin (two albums, stoner metal)

    The Crazy World of Arthur Brown (by The Crazy World of Arthur Brown). (Psychedelic rock with rnb/soul-style vocals, also possibly one of the first narrative-based albums)

    Ziltoid the Omniscient by Devin Townsend (prog-metal, one of the greatest albums of all time)

    And if you want the heaviest album I’ve ever heard, try Snailking by Ufomammut. It’s… It’s something else. Basically a mix of doom and stoner metal but with sludge metal effects. Best way I think I can describe it is if Pink Floyd had been a doom metal band addicted to Lovecraft. It’s trippy in a lovecraftian kinda way.

    Anyway, gonna cut myself off here.


    • If the wrong person wins, am I going to be put against the wall when people put two and two together (IRL + internet personae)?

    I literally came out to my parents about a week ago because of this question. I wish I’d done it sooner because I found that I’d been scared for mostly no reason. Furthermore, turns out 20-ish years of supressed dysphoria is reaaaally bad for your mood, self-worth, screws up your ability to function as a normal person and generally destroys your enthusiasm for life. Got used to it and didn’t even realize I was experiencing it but coming out to my parents also caused all of that to come out too.

    Uuuhh, anyway, I just kinda figured that, between domestic and foreign spying agencies, the US government probably already knew I was trans, even if my family didn’t. As such, there wasn’t any reason not to come out anymore; might as well go out waving my flag, yanno?




  • That’s great. But how long until I can play Balatro on my iPod Classic?

    (I love that indie devs occasionally port their games to nonsensical or obsolete platforms)

    Edit: I actually think Balatro would translate fairly well; assuming the iPod Classic has enough ram and CPU to run a visually stripped-down version. When I had an iPod Nano I played solitaire almost obsessively. The controls were a bit slow due to the limitations of using a clickwheel, but they actually worked really well.

    On a side note: does anyone know if capacitive clickwheels still under patent, trademark or whatever was keeping other companies from using them? I loved the way the iPod clickwheel felt and it sucked that no one else had a 1:1 replication of it.