we’re so back (but i will be making a separate post for my circumstances)
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Exhausted. Working 52.5 hours this week between my two jobs.
Pretty awful. Work sucks and I had to put my cat down on Friday. She was my best friend. I was okay over the weekend but I am increasingly lonely and heartachey.
I’m sorry for your loss. it will get easier, but i’m sure it doesn’t feel like that right now
I lost my kitty last year. Was very close to her as well. I don’t believe in ghosts but I think her ghost visited me in a dream shortly after she died. I’ll miss her forever.
Grief comes in waves and you can never predict when one will hit. I lost my cat of 15 years a couple months ago and I still swear I hear his meow sometimes
Good, been trying to understand assembly (I am failing miserably). It’s been awesome!
This is an amazing attitude; thank you for sharing your joy with us.
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welcome! glad to have you here with us, i hope you enjoy your stay :)
Welcome! Keep on buzzin, we love new beeple 🐝
Thankfully, its almost the end of my working week…2 nightshifts then I’m done… Hope you enjoyed your time off…
Watching the drama unfold on lemmy.world and all the freeze peach warriors going ape shit over there has me grateful for this little corner.
care to explain that one? I haven’t done much venturing in lemmy outside of our instance here, curious what the drama is?
They banned some piracy communities citing they don’t want to be liable (seems reasonable to me but not sure how much merit there is there). Now people are screaming “censorship.”
big yikes. i mean i’m no stranger to piracy communities but like…couldn’t they just take the respective communities and spin up their own lemmy server somewhere else where the lemmy.world admins have no power? isn’t that the point of this whole fediverse thing?
Having the communities removed does not prevent them from starting their own instance. They weren’t even being hosted on Lemmy.world to begin with, so nothing has changed for them other than unmitigated posting/presence on world’s instance. Any user who wants to participate in those communities still can. Nothing is stopping them.
lol so these are just the worst kind of losers? man. i’m with you, i am grateful for our lil community over here.
I just think there is so much drama happening because people don’t understand the fediverse yet combined with this incessant need to catch “power tripping mods” on forums. Because something sounds bad and some alt-right troll rolls in stirring the pot, people suddenly start crying “FREE SPEECH!” when the content they want to see and comment on is just one keyboard stroke away.
Pardon my ignorance… lemmy.world?
So right now you are on a specific instance of lemmy or Kbin or whatever your preferred fediverse system is. Lemmy.world is an instance. Beehaw.org is a lemmy instance. Users can create accounts on both and can browse the content of the other instances, unless the instance they are on (let’s say 1) defederates from the other (2). Then you cant browse the other instance(2) from within the one (1) that chose to defederate. The content from 2 doesn’t appear anymore on 1. But there’s nothing stopping you from browsing either.

It’s like watching the history of internet filesharing and warez from the 90s on a speedrun. LW happened to be the most populous instance by chance, and the nature of federated network means the admins can get legally held liable for contents they didn’t choose nor wanted to host, because all it takes is another federated server going rogue.
Sure, freedom of speech is fundamental. But it’s a hard place between “saving yourself from financial and legal troubles” and “betraying the (vaguely defined) principles”. When the crowd is shouting “freedom of speech”, they don’t just want a nice speech for an announcement; they want the admins become a martyr for the cause. And shit, what for? For some vague internet fame?
Had lemmy.ml become the largest instance, we would have potentially watched this unfold on lemmy devs themselves. Knowing their political affiliations, it might have turned into a different scenario. Legal threats might have been rebutted in an open way that even pleased the “freeze peach” crowd despite the “tankie” accusations. Perhaps all the extra pressure and legal threats meant Lemmy development come to a halt and slowly decline. But no one knows, really.
I don’t condone nor condemn LW or its staff. I wish they didn’t have to carry the baggage of becoming the guinea pig of this ongoing experiment.
I think people also for some reason think they are entitled to free speech, a.k.a. they can do whatever they want, and virtually any space they please. All it tells me is they lack a fundamental grasp of what the first amendment actually is and what it guarantees. I think they also forget the Internet operates outside of the US. 
I agree however I’d like to add that I do see piracy as being, at least partially, a social movement. Perhaps it isn’t apparent to everyone, or right now, and maybe it’ll never become anything, but still we should respect that there are different points of view on topics such as copyright. So I understand when people call it censoring when they have that point of view.
I just think vague gestures (not your doing) to someone’s personal interpretation of what free-speech is, which is generally “I should suffer no consequences for anything I say or do,“ hits a wall when it comes to asking somebody to host conversations and possible links to pirated content on their own servers. Especially when they are doing it on their own dime as a hobby and don’t have a legal team to protect them from the feds.
Yap it’s really up to the host to decide I think. And also there’s a huge difference between talking about piracy and actively sharing links.
Yeah I just can’t imagine running an instance. Minimum hundred dollars a month so I can constantly police content just to make sure people aren’t sharing CP or pirated content or otherwise illegal content all on my storage.
That’s quite a lot of money. Then you’d have enough users to recruit some moderators.
I won a bid on a house, finally WON a bid, and signed the paperwork and house went into pending.
But then because the seller realtor made a “mistake” and they managed to get another bid before we could get attorney approval letters filled out. So suddenly another offer came through and the seller realtor had a responsibility “in the interest of fairness” to present this offer even though contracts were already signed. In the interest of fairness they gave us the opportunity to outbid this offer, but of course they wouldnt tell us what that offer was to get an opportunity to potentially match it or just give up.
And in 3 fun days I got the ups and downs of anticipation of getting an answer, the emotional high of finally winning a bid and getting a house, the hype from planning inspection dates and imaging where I can go from house and how I can make it my own, the excitement and joy in telling the people, then the dread of not knowing if I’ll be able to keep the house, and finally the anger and sadness from having this fucking shark take my house away right out of my hands.
I’m staying positive I know we’ll find something, but this market is killing me.
even though contracts were already signed
I don’t know what jurisdiction you’re in, and even though I’m a lawyer, I’m not your lawyer, and this isn’t legal advice, and I have never seen your contract,
buuut…
I would get some legal advice from a real estate or professional negligence lawyer in your jurisdiction if I were you. That situation has the stink of contract breach / negligent realtor all over it.
Technically we still have a few days signing to get the attorney approval or rejection letter sent out. All theyre doing is having their attorney issue the rejection letter. So there really isnt much we can do on our end.
We could try and force them to honor to contract or at least get some compensation for the shady dealings, but it wouldnt be worth the cost or energy, especially when it’s unlikely to yield any fruit.
All I can do is hope karma gets them, and that the same kind of shady buyer that does stuff like this is going to be a predator when it comes to negotiating after inspection is done. “based on insert typical stuff I think Im going to have to drop my offer to 10k under asking price”.
I will keep an eye on this deal to see how things roll, and I will try to resist the urge to egg the house on the regular.
House buying is the absolute worst. I hate it so much…
You have to decide so much, on so little information and time. Hell you can spend longer researching a cheap kitchen appliance than a house.
Even when it’s all sorted it’s not really… not until you finally have the keys.
The only way I could be stay sane was shifting my way of thinking… eventually you will find your home and before long you’ll be making memories in it and will absolutely love your house. Every house you missed on was really a good thing in the end as it will lead you to that one house, your proper home.
Oh yeah, Im staying positive. I liked the area the house was in, and I think the house itself had a lot to offer, but it wasnt special and there are other houses. I’ll find something better in the meantime though I deeply dislike having to get back into the grind.
Was at the hospital earlier, my left foot was swollen until I couldn’t walk. Hyperuricimea (high uric acid leve) was the cause. Much better now, don’t worry.
the weekend at the beach will be over tonight. i had too much work today, so i couldn’t even pop out at lunchtime. still, i do think i got a bit of relaxing time in, and i feel a bit more even keeled than i have in awhile.
got my first few house sitting requests on rover. hopefully a few of them will actually go through so i can get a lil’ extra money. my own dog needs a tooth pulled, but i’ve been putting it off because it’s expensive and it’s not bothering him to the point that he’s not eating. hoping the rover gigs will eventually earn me enough to do that.
both dogs did really well at the beach house with my partner’s parents’ two dogs. one of them is ancient, but the other one is a 90lb goofball. my aussie did get nippy with him once over a toy, but i had him on a leash and was able to redirect right away.
I am having whatever the programming equivalent of the reverse Midas Touch is this week. PRs that break things despite extensive testing beforehand, PRs that somehow break the infrastructure due to some obscure bug on their end that requires lengthy calls to Azure support, being left with no choice but to craft janky regex-based solutions to people keeping their data in inconsistent formats, and oh my god as much as I love IntelliJ I wish it was a bit more reliable about warning me when the config has a typo because our app does not start in a hurry.
I’m sure the programming gods will favour me a little more next week, but it is only Tuesday!
I have Baldur’s Gate 3 brain rot. I can’t stop looking at Astarion fan art.
I’ve been struck down by some mystery illness. My head hurts but mostly I’m just fatigued and my mental faculties aren’t where they should be. I teach languages yet I can’t remember words for basic things right now! So I’m taking a few days off to recover. Hopefully will be back in by the end of the week.
In other news, I’ll be five months off alcohol this week. Social situations have become easier, I’m getting used to being a little bit goofy at parties and my friends have been super supportive! One even looked shocked when I held my partner’s beer at a festival a few weeks ago and made a joke saying they couldn’t remember the last time they saw me with a beer! It sounds small but it meant the world 😊
As I’m confined to my couch for the next little while I’m probably going to be a bit more active on beehaw! Hope you’re all having a nice week!
I am not a medical professional but it sounds like you could have a bad migraine, or an iron or vitamin deficiency.
Congrats on 5 months sober!!! Quitting drinking was the best decision I ever made.
So weird that you mention the iron deficiency because a friend of mine literally just suggested that too. I follow a mostly plant based diet and I’m low on iron to begin with. Not only that but being sober means I don’t get as many meaty takeaways as hungover treats, I wonder if that has affected my nutrition. Will put myself on some iron tablets and report back!
I’ve been struck down by some mystery illness. My head hurts but mostly I’m just fatigued and my mental faculties aren’t where they should be. I teach languages yet I can’t remember words for basic things right now! So I’m taking a few days off to recover. Hopefully will be back in by the end of the week.
2 years ago I would have said that sounds a lot like long COVID. I’m assuming you’re vaxxed and everything so that’s probably unlikely. Fingers crossed you feel better! Make some posts in your favorite communities here. We need the content 😉
You’re right I’m all vaxxed up! It’s a real head scratcher. I don’t have any physical symptoms other than being tired and having a sore head but the mental symptoms are awful! And of course having no physical symptoms (no cold symptoms) makes me feel like I’m faking it ughhh.
I’m a huge believer of listening to my body when it’s in distress so I’m HOPING all this couch time will speed up my recovery.
Make some posts in your favorite communities here. We need the content
Aye aye captain 🫡
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Ready to kill myself.
I’m tired of struggling everyday for shit that doesn’t seem to matter in a world that is on fire with people who hate me.
It is of great comfort to me to remember that most people are completely indifferent to me.
But for my part I hope you find some light in your life
I, for one, am eager to read of your comeback. I’m hopeful for you.
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A little stressed about work and money and trying to not panic about climate change. Overall just exhausted, fending off depression as best as I can, looking for new ways to keep myself motivated and excited about life. I’m going to experiment with new recipes this weekend.
I love your expression “feeling off depression” — I feel you! I hope you get better!
Lol that was a typo! I meant “fending off depression”, thank you. I hope you’re feeling better as well!
