Coffee? CHECK. Baked bread? CHECK. Not dead? CHECK.

Off to a good start.

Got a dogshit performance review because I did not conform to the pointless metrics we’re judged against, like ‘Positivity’ and ‘Responsiveness’ (because I didn’t smile every day and I don’t answer teams messages after hours.) I hate this job. Fuck capitalism.

Depression sets in pretty early, lmao, as expected. Wonder how long do I have left in me.

New Year’s Eve was typical for me. I fall asleep way too early. We watched the fireworks from Sydney streaming live. Wow what a show! My goal is to get everything in order to retire this year. There’s so much to do, wading through all the healthcare options is probably the biggest.

I’m to be dismissed from my job Jan 3.

I guess I have prospects. Still, it’s a hell of a kick in the teeth, I’ve never been involuntarily terminated from a job in my entire life.

did my traditional new year’s day bike ride. had about 12-15 people show up! rode ~15 miles at an easy pace and feeling great.

Last year hasn’t been a good year for me, to be fair. I’ve been having some health problems (luckily I’m on medical treatment and it’s nothing serious)

I don’t expect much from this year, but I hope to be able to do more things (and be once again active in the fediverse) now that my health issues are more controlled.

New year celebrations were alright. I expend it with the family.

I’m excited about the new year. I’ve made some new friends and want to explore that. And I might be falling in love but a part of me also hopes that’s not the case.

Broke up with my long distance girlfriend, I couldn’t handle the distance, it’s the most painful thing I have ever done, but I just felt so sad knowing that it might be years before I ever get to see her 🥲

Painfully. Ribcage & sternum in bits following some overly exuberant dancing on the 30th. Hopefully just bruising & fractures and not soft tissue damage, but extra uncomfortable with a bad cough.

Still, should help me quit smoking as in too much pain to want to & likewise to shift pattern of seeing boyfriend to something far less frequent.

EDIT: realised I had to end things with boyfriend, so did that then got a barrage of super-manipulative texts, complete with vague suicide threats, so definitely dodged a bullet there. Very supportive message then came in from a mutual friend, so was able to clear up a few things.

I just don’t know.

This didn’t seem the wrong place to do this so here goes.

I am new here…Most people call me Mara, or Bob, there are a few other AKA’s I am known by but those are my favorites so feel free to use those or what ever you want. I answer to a lot of names. This is such an awesome concept. The short version of my background is I am Autistic (1), Gay, and Satanist. I use he/him but gender doesn’t really have a lot of meaning to me, so whatever works. This is my first real day here so I am a bit overwhelmed but I am learning my way around and it is so amazing reading and getting to know the philosophies.

I am not going to write a book here but I do like to talk so please feel free to engage me. I am very politically engaged (I am very left for an American). I do believe that claims require sources, unless they are clearly stated as opinion. I have some diverse hobbies so there is always something to talk about. One last thing, and I know how this sounds, but know I mean it. No mater what, no matter how bad the disagreement, or how far our opinions differ I really do love you! That doesn’t Change.

Quiet as usual, all same old really just lots of rain!

Celebrated with the young 'uns till 01:20 in the morning and no hangover, so two good things - can still drink moderately and stay up past midnight! Yay!

How about you?

Thinking about resolutions, I want to be more active this year but want to find something that feels convenient enough to not give me an excuse. There’s a gym near my office, so I might try to do a quick half hour workout before going in since 70% of the battle is leaving the house