it’s hot. also i’m growing cacti from seed which is new to me and i’m excited, a few of them are sprouting now. how are you?

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  • gaystyleJoker [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    4·
    14 days ago

    hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i’ll add you to the list!

    the list as it stands:

    Disaster_of_Passion (7/7 - 7/13)
sodium_nitride (7/14 - 7/20)
peanutbuttercupola* (7/21 - 7/27)
BountifulEggnog* (7/28 - 8/3)    
oscardejarjayes* (8/4 - 8/10)
Seryph (8/11 - 8/17)
Shaleesh (8/18 - 8/24)
GayTuckerCarlson* (8/25 - 8/31)
Eco* (9/1 - 9/7)
nemmybun (9/8 - 9/14)

    ​ * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

  • Octagonprime [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    23·
    13 days ago

    Shout-out to the people who encouraged me when I posted in the trans megathread when my egg was cracking like 7-8 months ago. 6 months on hrt now and Im so much happier :D

      • Octagonprime [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
        7·
        13 days ago

        Also I remember you saying to me before that my post could have been from you 7 months earlier,since you are clearly my future self you should tell me what I have in store the next 7 months, and maybe the winning lottery numbers

        • EstraDoll [she/her, he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
          7·
          13 days ago

          uhhhhhh… this is the bit of your life when you realize that although transitioning was an immense step in self improvement, there’s still a lot wrong with you internally and you still have a lot to work on. You get angry and frustrated by this until you start “talking with” ancient gods in a rhetorical sense until it stops getting rhetorical and starts getting literal. you’ll then have a moment with what feels like talking to someone/thing supernatural and dive head first into some obscure quasi religious practice

          you’ll also come out at work, which you’ll be going into expecting one hell of a fight but being pleasantly surprised with how relatively easy it was. customers will still misgender you regularly for an unfortunately long time, despite your best efforts

          • Octagonprime [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
            5·
            13 days ago

            Yeah that all sounds like a possibility. I was going to say thankfully I work without actual coworkers and not in customer service anymore but unfortunately I probably am picking up a second job at some point to be able to save up . Haven’t had interactions with spiritual entities since my psychadelic days but you never know

  • Jenniferrr [she/her, comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    21·
    13 days ago

    I went on a date with a reaaaaalllyyyy cute guy last night. We talked for like 3 hours and he kissed me goodbye. So forearms were like double the size of mine I was in a puddle at the end, this is my first time that I’ve had a guy make me feel this way and I’m like what the hell, how have I missed this my whole life 😭

    I feel like I’ve always been attracted to men in kinda a different way, like they were my friend and we were the same, while women were like this other species, but i really like it flipped around lol. 😝

    • EstraDoll [she/her, he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
      7·
      12 days ago

      on a serious note: holy shit that sounds incredible and i can’t even pretend to hide my jealousy. I’d die on the spot as a happy woman if that were me

      i really want to try dating men but i keep getting terrified that they won’t see me as a woman. I see myself as a woman but I’m never confidence that anyone else will. I’d sell my soul for a man to let me be the girl on a date though 😭

  • onandrah1 [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    20·
    14 days ago

    Hey loves 💜

    I wanted to give a little update, we made it through the hospital thanks to you all, but now my sisters and I are really struggling to find a safe place to stay. Right now we’re stuck somewhere temporary that’s not safe at all, and it’s scary not knowing what could happen next.

    UNHCR told us to stay in Juba while they keep working on resettlement, but there’s no safe place here, and we can’t go back to Gorom camp because the host community doesn’t want us anymore. We’re trying to raise around $700–850 so we can get a small apartment for the four of us, with money for transport, rent, bedding, food, and the meds my sisters still need.

    We’ve only raised $66 so far, so we still have a long way to go. If you can help us by donating, sharing, or even giving advice on safe places, it would mean everything to us right now. My mutual aid link is in my profile. Thank you so much for being here for us. Love you all so much. 💙🙏🏿

    • Are_Euclidding_Me [e/em/eir]@hexbear.netEnglish
      5·
      11 days ago

      Absolutely! I heard something the other day that made me a little more comfortable with this impossible question, maybe it’ll help you too: answer this question as though it’s asking “which of the two normie genders do you feel more aligned with today?”

  • MoonElf [she/her, comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    17·
    12 days ago

    cw: relationship sadposting

    so it’s been a year since I started HRT and my wife and partner of 25 years has not warmed up to me being a woman. To the contrary the softer I have become the less interested she is in sharing affection. My irl cis friend says that i need to stick a fork in this relationship and when i told the wife she didn’t argue she admitted that it’s gotten harder not easier. But she doesn’t want to split up, we are co parents and i’m the house wife!

    But i’m so alone, i had a gf for a while (poly not cheating) but that fizzled out so i’m gonna just have to try again. I don’t have any family and few friends and im desperate to be squeezed and feel connected. I downloaded a new trans dating app with a dumb name and there’s so many cute girls in my area and while I may never pass and I may be old I’m still cute and i’m super soft now and i like myself so that’s gotta help.

    I don’t really want someone else i want my wife but the spells i tried didn’t work and i can’t really think of anything else to try. Sometimes you make mistakes. The worst part is i feel like i stole something from her by killing off her husband. blah blah blah thanks for letting me vent kiddos. i love you bears so much :)

    • MoonElf [she/her, comrade/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
      9·
      12 days ago

      i woke up today ready to have a tough talk with her and she was cuddling me and being super sweet. I said my piece anyway, not really an ultimatum just communicating that i have sone basic needs that aren’t getting met and that i need to move on very soon if this isn’t going to work out before i age out of the dwindling dating pool. she listened and apologized and admitted that things were hard but she still wanted to be with me and try to make it work. She said the boobs, which i have been extremely fortunate to have the right genetics for, are really tough to deal with and we talked about ways to try and mitigate the issues.

      I remain an optimist because I sure do love that woman.

      probably doomed but i’m still in girls. I got a kiss :)

  • Alisu [they/them, she/her]@hexbear.net
    16·
    13 days ago

    Got a few web friends to use my real pronouns and my new name. It just makes me feel euphoric, but somehow still feels wrong. Maybe some internalized transphobia or just the disphoria (probably because I haven’t started any part of the transition yet). But I’m happy anyways for getting some validation.