Stay strong comrade. It’s not your fault for falling back into it. Everyone still loves and supports you. Work hard to restrain yourself!! I have also been going through some stressful times and I don’t really have anything to ease the pain. It sucks, but at least there are little things I can still do; like video games, eating, etc. It doesn’t feel like much but it’s the only shelter I have from this harsh world. I hope good things come your way comrade.
Hugs, they just give so much more then pats